Left With A Heartbreak And A Memory.

I try not to let it sink in but it does.
My stomach is in knots.
It's a feeling of like a hundred rocks in my stomach.
I literally want to vomit.
It's a hurt words can't begin to describe.
I don't want to be alive I just want this feeling to stop.
I break down in the most random moments.
And part of me feels so alone and empty.
And then I remember I have so many people who care about me, but why is it when you need someone the most nobody is there.
If it wasn't for my mom I would be feeling so much worse then I do now. She's so understanding with what I'm going through I can't thank her enough.
I know that even though I'm going through all this heart break and I think I need him back the person I need the most is him.
But sometimes I don't feel like I deserve gods help, like im not worthy because I put so much before him at times.
But he loves me, I know he does.
And he lays out all these trials in my path for a reason, because he knows im strong enough to handle it,
I believe God has a different plan for me and I may not see it now but I trust in him everything will be alright in the end.

"God can restore what is broken and change it into something amazing. 

All you need is faith.♡"

-Joel 2:25