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Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Love is this mind blowing concept to me.
And with Valentines day coming up I can't decide whether I hate love,
or I love love..
Either way I can't wait to buy my own box of chocolates and sign my own card,
Luckily it's on a Thursday so it's not like i'll miss out.
I asked my little brother if he'd be my valentine..
He said no.
Rejected by my own blood.
Anyways this is how I feel about love right now.


After a recent break up...

Legally Blonde: Fixes all the problems in the world after a break-up or any other disastrous day. (:

chocolate.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

25 Confessions.

1.I sometimes think I was born in the wrong era.
2. When I was seven I killed my pet bunny by flushing it down the toilet.. I though it wanted a bath. No joke.
3. As much as I call my dog ugly I really do like her.
4. I want to leave Utah and start somewhere new but im absolutely terrified of this world.
5. I have honestly thought about my future a billion times wondering if i'll ever get married.
6. If im 25 and still single Im going on the bachelor.
7. No matter how much I eat I always have room for dessert.
8. I'm always eating. Always.
9. I worry about pleasing others more than myself.
10. If you eat my food and I don't feel like sharing I will cut you.
11. I've secretly wondered if I'll die alone with cats. Like For real.
12. I cried on the night of the Justin Bieber concert because I didn't get to go.
13. If I flirt with you over text and do "" this. Don't ask me to do it in person I look like an idiot.
14. I've never been to an Olive Garden, Texas Roadhouse or Happy Sumo.
15. In elementary Sean Lee gave me my first purse and I started a collection that ended up to 94 purses..
16. I have an alarm set for 11:11 everyday so I don't miss it. Ever. 
17. The meaning of my name is "the dark one; of the devil" I don't think my parents knew that when they named me.
18.In 7th grade I met my best friend.
19. In 8th I hated her. Hi Ally.
20. I absolutely love Halloween, it's my all-time favorite holiday.
21. I don't think anyone will ever understand how much me and my friends truly went through together in 2012.
22. If I could be anyone in the world I really would be Zach Galifinakis. 
23. my favorite part of a relationship is when they are complete strangers and you play those stupid get to know you games. I don't know why.
24. I hope that my first marriage is my only marriage.
25. And my real names Fat Patricia.
And now it's your turn.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. -Peyton Sawyer

Friday, January 25, 2013

Outside Looking In.

You know those days when you feel completely out of place?
Lately that's how I feel and for some reason I feel like I have this huge load of regret on my shoulders, and thinking back to things I don't feel like I shouldn't have any regret to feel..
I mean yes I have a things I wish I wouldn't have done or things I wish I would've but I don't know why they are all haunting me now..
Mostly I wish I could just start over from beginning of senior year.
And wished I would have known how things were gonna work out.
Because I guess I never expected to go through so much..
Or maybe it's just the hormones talking,
because in a way I like where I am now.
I guess I like who I'm becoming but I wish there were certain people in my life still so they could see who I'm becoming and how I am now.
I don't know Im just super confused with myself today.
On the Bright side it's pay day!
And Friday!
Well. That was a weird post.
Good day!

Monday, January 21, 2013

Support Gay Marriage.

I apologize if the language in this video makes you uncomfortable.
But this video made me laugh.

High School In A Nut Shell.

With a little help from Honey Boo-Boo.
(inspired by: Snark and Testimony.

Jr. High wasn't horrible but and you look forward to High School because apparently it's way better then Jr. High.

You get all nervous and dressed up to go on your first day:

The mean girls stare you down like this:


please they ain't got nothin on you:


they spread rumors and try to bully you but you defend yourself pretty well:


In class:
your teachers ask you really easy questions and homework like this:
you're gonna Ace that Final:
Finals finally come around you take one look at your test and you're all like:
WHAT?!
You shortly after just give up and sit at your desk like this
till it's over.

Dating:
your about to go on your first date:


on your date you go to dinner,
so you eat with manners but the second your date looks away you're all like..


On The Weekend:
your friends call you to see what your up to:


They say "Let's go to a party!"
so you go get a little crazy..


Monday comes around and you realize you may have partied a little to hard so you just crash:

lights out.
Peer Pressure:

Everyone falls into it and the media starts to influence your future decisions..


You later on Start to think abut your future and decide you want to be a supermodel:


You try to figure out who you are in high school but start doubting yourself:


you start to think things like:



you try to be nice to everyone and make everyone feel good about themselves;


And then at the end of the day your Mom ask you how school went!
This is your reply.


THE END.
Have a great day.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

I'm seriously obsessed with this video.
Some people think it's weird but I love what she's trying to get through. 
Props T-Swift.

Some Chill Tunes.

My recent obsessions: 
Thin Line-Macklemore 

Neon Cathedral-Macklemore

Ellie Goulding- High For This

Time of Your Life-Kid Ink

Sky Is Born-Radical Something

For Those kind of days:
Don't Let Me Fall-B.o.b

I Almost do-Taylor Swift

Ghost In the Machine- B.o.b

Beautiful Goodbye- Maroon Five

Hey Babe- Radical Something.

The Mess I Made-Parachute

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Everything Has Changed

All I knew this morning when I woke
Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before
And all I've seen since 18 hours ago is green eyes and freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and i'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

And all my walls stood tall painted blue
But i'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies the beautiful kind
Making up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel like

I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and i'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Come back and tell me why
I'm feeling like i've missed you all this time
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it's not all in my mind

I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is he held the door
You'll be mine and i'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

All I know is we said hello
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain
And everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days, i'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

-Taylor Swift.
She so gets me.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Fairy tales.

So basically these past two days I haven't left my house because I don't feel like being social,
but mostly because I don't wanna be cold.
So I've been watching Gossip girl and this how i was inspired to write about Fairytales and Love.
"The problem with fairytales is that they set a girl up for disappointment."
It's true isn't it?
When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. 
In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted.
In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. 
The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. 
Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. 
You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot; 
he's really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair.
And it's not just the way you meet prince charming it's what happens through out the fairy tales,
they all have their obstacles to over come before they reach their happily ever after,
Like Cinderella has to get home before midnight,
Sleeping beauty is basically put in a coma until true loves kiss wakes her up, 
Snow white eats an apple and gets food poisoning,
Ariel is a fish and gives up her voice to have legs, 
Jasmine likes a poor boy,
Tiana becomes a frog etc, etc.
In stories they don't tell you that in real life
"hey maybe the guy you like doesn't like you back"
or maybe he says the same things to twenty other girls,
"oh there's also a billion other girls he can potentially date, 
that are prettier, smarter, funnier, nicer and all around just better then you"
and the bad guy isn't always a guy you date and hey turns out he cheated on you like 4 times,
sometimes the bad guy is your mom or dad because they don't want you to be together,
or the ex girl friend that will stop at nothing to get him back.
And then here's the real part that messes us up,
The Happily Ever After ending,
taught me that when I fall in love that person will automatically love me back,
and that they feel the exact same way and will love me forever,
and want to spend the rest of their life with you,
and that you will be SO happy.
I don't know who wrote these stories but they sure as heck made my love life a mess,
They didn't tell me I was going to have to kiss a lot of frogs to find my perfect prince,
or that my prince would run off with the wrong princess,
or that I may not ever find him and just have my happily ever after with a bunch of cats,
or maybe my happily ever after is just moving on and I just don't see that yet.
They also didn't tell me that It would take time to move one,
or a lot of tears and eventually you just grow apart from that person
and they just become a memory..

Absolutely..Ohh Disney.make it happen.Walt Disneyso not worth it.Hahaha oh man... one direction quotes,goodbye my hopeless dream..Pinned Image