Everyone knows the part where she follows the rabbit into the rabbit hole but it made realize how strangely the scene related to my life.
At first Alice goes into the rabbit hole and she struggles a little, it's dark she has no idea where she is going and falls,
Once she's falling she starts to slow down,
Then she see's a little switch that turns on a light,
she starts to discover things at one point she see's herself in a mirror upside down,
she has a few moments when she's falling that she falls quick and unexpectedly,
once she's done falling she then again follows the rabbit into a room with one door and has no idea where that door is gonna lead her to.
That's exactly the point I am at in my life.
My dark point was the end of last year when I lost two really important people to me in life, I was struggling it was dark and I hit rock bottom.
My slow down scene was my numbing phase I stopped caring about everything and everyone in my life.
I really didn't care, Sometimes I didn't feel like living. Not to the point where I wanted to commit suicide or anything like that, just to the point where I wanted to stop and go away, be calm and happy.
And that little light switch I found was a friend I made towards the end of last year and we became really close, like who would have thought we would have become friends?! And I don't even think that person knows how much of an effect they had and helped me out. Better yet I haven't told them.
I started to discover new things, made new friends I started to discover myself. Which is really cliche but really.
My reflection was the drastic change I had made in life since then.
And those quick drops are the little things that get to me every once in a while, because after a while they do and there is nothing anyone can say or do to make you feel better but you have to keep going.
And right now I have no idea where the next chapter, or "door" in my life is gonna take me. I got rid of a few people and talked to a few old ones, and now im just gonna let it lead me to wherever this road takes me, because im curious and,
"Curiosity often leads to trouble."-Alice
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